I smile to tell you
That I will not object,
I am bound to obey you.
I smile to show you
That I will not offend,
I pose no danger, because I am hollow.
My body, my sacred temple,
Has been scrubbed and washed,
To numb the pain, ignore my mind.
My smile of innocence is really
My armor, raised to protect me
From your kind.
I smile to lie, because I hate you smiling,
But I’ll survive as I did before,
I love no more, I only smile,
I seek your care, love, attention,
Forgive me, if I am stupid, if I’m wrong,
I have no way of knowing, how you feel.
I laugh to let you know I am smiling,
I cry to show you that I am hurt,
The words have little application.
So I’ve been trained
To keep my mouth shut.
I will not argue, I will accept.
Humility I must express, and please the world,
I must enjoy the shackles of tradition,
And smile at you, because you claimed me first.
Please help me,
Show me how to love,
Please tame this beast within my cage.
I am trained to owe my very being,
To those who fed and clothed me,
Who told me how to behave and live,
Who tossed my character aside,
As if defected, contaminated
I had to be assimilated,
A Bonsai tree, to entertain,
To follow followers’ orders,
To be submissive, and to smile
I must be thankful for the life,
That has no meaning,
I have to smile, I must respect,
I have no meaningful opinion,
I must adjust, adhere and endure,
To show you my appreciation,
I smile, because I am dead inside.
Please don’t be mad,
I know, I don’t deserve to be alive,
I am your curse, your pain and failure,
I smile to beg for your forgiveness,
I smile to make you happy,
I smile to serve you, and consume
The toxic fumes you emanate,
I must not think that you are human,
You never err, regret or fail,
I must forget that I am different,
Because you bore me, I am yours forever.
I smile, to prove you I still exist,
I smile,
Because you threaten to disown me,
I smile, but I forgive you for the war,
That ravaged me since I was born.
Inspiring 